Being angry at all the injustices in the world is not the most effective way to change them. I am reminding myself this again for the umpteenth time! My dragon self wants to breathe flames on all people who use their power with impunity and abuse others in all kinds of horrific ways. My girl self just cries for the sadness that so many people undergo. But all this, as noble as it is in intention, makes me completely useless in my own life! I'm behind on applications, art projects and exercise and this is not making me happy. I'm reminding myself that carrying other people's pain is like martyrdom, and martyrdom needs to be discontinued as a way to change the world forever. My mom taught me how to do this well. She was the best martyr in the world and died of illness and a broken heart. I have been conditioned through my entire childhood and teenage life that this was the way to be. As an adult I must choose differently. I must choose the way of happiness, and I believe that this is the only way to help our world heal. Happy people make other people happy!
Yesterday, as I was walking and going over this in my mind I felt the impulse to "just stop". Stop what? Stop fighting in your mind. Let it all go. Build something beautiful.